What do i do i need help?

My ex wants his hat back but the night i was going to give it to him he didnt come to the rodeo so i put in a friends pickup and the next day wen i went to pick it up it was gone and my friend said she couldnt find it and no hes bitching my ace out for loosing it i told him sarah cant find it but he wont leave me alone i said i feel bad that i lost i and im trying to find it and give it back, but now that hes being an ace i dont no if i realy want to give it back to him, o ya it s his favorite hat